My title comes from the sonnet “On His Blindness” by John Milton in which he laments that his blindness now keeps him from using what he (rightly?) considered his greatest talent: writing. He wonders why God would give him such a gift and then block its use. In the end he hears God’s answer: “They also serve that only stand and wait.”
The two lessons I am learning from my experience as a writer are patience and humility. I have not learned them yet. I struggle with one or both daily. Since I used to get attention for writing plays in elementary school, I have fed my ego with writing. I was labeled “gifted” and set on the path of self-aggrandizement. God seems to be using this “gift” to teach me that it IS A GIFT, not my doing. Ego separates us from God. If we can let our pride go, we will have more room for God in our hearts.
How hard it must have been for the proud Milton to “stand and wait” humbly. It is hard for me. Dear Lord, give me strength to wait patiently and not to despair. I want to trust that it will all be right in the end. And to quote from The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel, “If it is not all right, it is not yet the end.” Amen.