When nobody was around, I thought I would meditate twice a day for a total of at least 40 minutes. Instead I stared blankly out the window at oak leaves moving in the breeze.

When nobody was around, I thought I would revise my novel draft, making all the corrections my editor Joan had marked. Instead I never opened the document at all.

When nobody was around, I thought I would practice cartooning my characters Mark and Mira. Instead I sketched two acorn cups I found on my walk.

When nobody was around, I thought I would drink matcha tea and peel some tangerines. Instead I ate instant oatmeal and chocolate almonds—lots of them.

When nobody was around, I went on silent retreat in the mountains to be productive. Instead I rested, stared, enjoyed, and procrastinated.

Maybe retreats are not for doing but for being. Not for reaching goals but for setting them aside. Not for striving but for letting go.

Next time I go on retreat I will change my expectations. I will expect nothing to be accomplished. I will sit, stare, and be. What’s wrong with that?

2 thoughts on “What Are Retreats For?

  1. I love it. It is so true! To top it off I then feel guilty for not doing “the thing” I said I would.

    Have a great day!

    Esther

    On Thu, Jul 9, 2020 at 5:23 AM Green and Purple Publishing wrote:

    > pambowen posted: “When nobody was around, I thought I would meditate twice > a day for a total of at least 40 minutes. Instead I stared blankly out the > window at oak leaves moving in the breeze. When nobody was around, I > thought I would revise my novel draft, making all the” >

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  2. Yes! For some retreat can be a oroductive doing, but just as often retreat is productive for letting go and simply being.

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